Today I was going through some old playlists just to see what was on them, and suddenly…
…I started crying! And I thought, oh god why.
That was very strange because I very seldom cry, and I wasn’t even having a bad day, it was quite good actually.
And I wasn’t even paying attention to the lyrics I was doing something else.
So I checked the song, and it was a song I hadn’t heard since 2006 “making love” by Utada Hikaru.
And I remembered, how that song always used to make me cry every time I heard it.
So there was an inbuilt mechanism in my subconscious that was automatically triggered by that song
I thought I was stronger than that
but I couldn’t resist
the song had used painful memories
and it was super effective!